A Life in Snapshots
I’m a sucker for nostalgia. In
fact, I attribute a huge portion of my personality to this character trait. I
love looking back on any given day and trying to figure out what I was doing a year ago—where I was, who I was and what I deemed important.
You should try it—when people look
at their lives in snapshots, they are always surprised to find that, week by
week, day by day, they’ve been growing and changing into who they are today.
The days between Christmas and the
New Year bring a unique season to our country. People seem to stop collectively
and examine what their lives have consisted of in the past year, two years,
five years— and more importantly, they consider whether or not the things they
pour their time, energy and passion into really matter.
In other words, it’s a nation-wide
nostalgia session. It’s a healthy dose of hindsight—we can look back at our lives and see how much we’ve grown, where we
are now and where we want to go next.
Let me show you what I’m talking
about when I say a life in snapshots. Bust out your Marty McFly vests y’all,
because we’re traveling all the way back to the sepia-stained year of 2009 so I
can prove my point.
February 2, 2009
It's a Monday, and I'm wrapping up one of the last dress rehearsals for Les Miserables. At this point of my life, I have a five-year streak
of shows going for me. I never had more than two weeks off between any two productions, and as an aspiring actor, that’s the way I liked it. In my mind, this was
how my life was meant to be—a never-ending string of shows.
In my sophomore year of high school I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life; I just had fun and lived
from one rehearsal to the next. My closest friends were the guys my age in the
youth group—we got ourselves tangled into more mischief than I care to
remember, but we had more fun than anyone we knew.
I could have cared less about
school. I took Pre-AP classes, skirted my way through the mandatory Spanish classes,
and avoided anything that required effort.
As far as leadership went, I had about
zero interest in being involved in any. The extent of my leadership experience
consisted of co-directing a 15-minute one act— I was a born, albeit articulate,
follower.
November 15, 2010
Like
everyone else in the high school graduating class of 2011, I had become acutely
aware that a clock ticked in the background—the time bomb named “college”.
It terrifies, excites, and frustrates everybody their senior year. For me,
decision time had come.
I still had no idea what I wanted to do
with my life, but I knew that God had already said no to me pursuing theatre in
college. At this point, however, I turned a deaf ear and stubbornly prepared college audition tapes in spite
of what I knew God had told me.
It would be another five months before I finally accepted God’s plan
(*cough* Jeremiah 29:11 *COUGH*). This led to a very bitter season of my life
where I didn’t treat the people around me well in any sense of the word.
School
had become an oppressively boring routine. I was one of the guys you would see
in classes like “Marine Biology”—because in the back of my head I kept telling
myself it didn’t matter what I was enrolled in, because musical theatre
programs weren’t going to care what my GPA was.
At this
point, God had planted the seed of leadership in my heart, but it was small.
The word that seemed to haunt me as I prepared to leave Union High School was “legacy”—I
was constantly plagued with a question: “What legacy are you leaving behind
you, and is it a legacy worth following?”
I never
liked the answer to that question.
December 3, 2011
It’s the Saturday before dead
week—and I’m at a party. There are probably 250 people in the house, and I walked
around like I know every one of them.
This marked the end of one of the most impacting semesters of my life—starting
college, pledging BYX, and become an extrovert by choice—and when I say
extrovert, I mean EXTROVERT. Life had never been so exciting and dynamic.
My
study habits had become drastically different. I knew every good study spot on
campus, because I had frequented most of them myself. I had decided on public
relations as a major, and was completely stoked for my future in it (STILL AM).
I had
two crystal-clear passions in my life: leadership and people. I feverishly
pursued opportunities to be an influencer, leader and example-setter—more than
that though, I sought out any opportunity to meet and connect with people. I
would drop a textbook instantly for the opportunity to go to Classics with a
couple pledge brothers “just because”.
I had
hit the sweet spot—I could feel God moving in every day of my life, and each
new day held a new experience.
I can’t
help but love life each day now.
December 19, 2012
I’m 20
now. I’m at the precipice of the most exciting decade of my life, and I’m
experiencing it with some of the best people I’ve ever known. My roommates are
the most unique blend of personalities I could ever imagine, and they are the
support group that has pushed me this semester to grow in more ways than one. They
are just a few of the great friends that have come into my life that make every
day a memorable blessing.
Between learning a new language, picking up business classes and starting up my second consecutive season of being in charge of rush for my fraternity, I sometimes can't help but laugh when I think that four years ago the most exciting thing in my life was the next show.
I joke
with the people I’m close to often that I feel like I’ve started my 30s more
than my 20s. Yet at the same time, I really do feel that way—and it’s a good
thing. Maturity is a lifelong journey—but the past year and a half has grown me
exponentially. It makes me irrepressibly excited for the future—one year down
the road, two, three. The road I’m on is the kind that is filled with so much
life and hope I can’t even understand how lucky I am.
Nathan, what are you getting at?
Look at the snapshots of your own life. I'm willing to bet if you roll the clock back even three years, you'd hardly be able to recognize yourself. But so often we lose sight of this fantastic journey.
It’s so
easy to get lost in the day-to-day, the routines, the checklists, the goals. When
we let ourselves get enveloped in all of that, we don’t see how we’re changing
over time. Our noses get too close to the grindstone and we get wrapped up in
things that aren't important. So here is what I’m asking you two weeks ahead of time.
This
New Years, take a step back and look at your life. Look back a year, two years.
Ask yourself, who are you now? What do you value? What are your priorities?
What are your goals? Have they changed since a year ago? Two years ago?
Then
ask yourself this— where do you want to take your life now?
Your future is in good hands—it’s in your hands. So grab it, and go run after something worth chasing so
that you have something to remember when you look back on 2013.
See what a little nostalgia can do?
Go celebrate Christmas—enjoy your
families, remember the birth of our Savior and bring in the New Years right—but
take a few minutes to step away. Look back and reflect—
Because when you look at a life in
snapshots, you’ll be surprised how much the picture changes.
Thanks for reading—I wish you all a
Merry (Early) Christmas!
Yours,
Nathan Robertson